Monday, 24 February 2014

A new perspective

    I am so much less depressed and happy now I can't believe it. I literally thought I was hopeless before this medication and that I would feel how I felt for my whole life. Now I know things get better. A new perspective. Haven't had a bad panic attack in a while which makes me so hopeful about my life. Finally life is looking up, even though I never thought it would. Cipralex literally is saving me

Thursday, 20 February 2014


FINALLY all my side effects are gone. Finally my life is starting to get better and I want to cry about it. I am waaaaaaay less depressed than ever before and it feels so good. I haven't been in such a good mood in so long. I am still getting anxiety attacks; even though I obviously know how to deal with them, they are still very scary and unsettling. Last week I was contemplating different ways to kill myself and now I am seeing the positive results of Cipralex on depression. Finally.

Sunday, 9 February 2014

A month on Cipralex

  This medication is obviously not a quick fix, but finally after a month my side effects are very much gone. I am not magically "fixed" or anything like that but there's things I notice about myself, small things, that have made me change my perspective on getting better. I am less afraid of life. I want to go out places and get my life on the right track. Also, I don't want to die as much, hardly at all really. This is how I know I am getting better. A month ago I was 100% sure I wasn't going to get better and I was trapped. I don't feel trapped in the dark hole that I had created for myself. I spend less time in my bed, I'm not trying to make the world go away anymore - now the world is a place I am excited to be in.
   I still get panic attacks just as frequently though, I'd be lying if I said I didn't.