Cipralex Day 15

   One word. Exhausted. Holy shit now I know why they say to take this stuff at night, it makes you the most tired ever. Also the other problem is that it is also very hard to sleep on this stuff, no matter how tired I am, so it wouldn't really make a difference to take it at night. I already slept a ridiculous amount before I went on this medication since I am a typical teenager who needs a nap to get through the day. Now it's more like I need 2 to function. I've researched this and everyone says its very normal, I just feel like a fucking zombie when I can't get a nap in!!!!!! Also my dreams are so vivid it crazy, just like what happened on Prozac. This week has been probably the most tiring of my whole life. Fuck.

Day 12 on Cipralex

  I've been on Cipralex for about 12 days now for my panic disorder and depression, and I can say it has been the opposite of easy. I was terrified to start up on pills again. I'm on 0.5 mg, obviously a very low dose as you have to cut the pills in half. I take them every morning opposed to at night, which would've probably been better since I am tired all the time on them. A lot of the days were terrible. When I first I didn't feel very much; I was foggy headed and out of it which is normal when starting SSRIs. My jaw and teeth hurt at the beginning from clenching my teeth, which happened when I was on Prozac as well.
   After a few days I started getting dizzy spells, chills, along with lots of nausea, I even puked once. My anxiety and depression seemed to get worse. The side effects have also given me more triggers for panic, and I had a major panic attack (I haven't had one so bad in a while) and had to take an Ativan to calm down. This took me a day to get over and I felt very discouraged. I took a day off school and dance, as many people take days off when starting new anti-depressants.I had no motivation to leave my house and felt very depressed like I would never get out of this dark hole, and debated stopping the pills all together. I know it is normal to have these thoughts and for things to get worse before they get better on these pills.
   Now on day 12 things have been getting slightly better. I've been taking non-drowsy ginger Gravol for the nausea and I am trying to stay positive but it's pretty hard to do. I've felt kind of panicky today, but not as depressed I just need to get through this next little bit until I will start seeing some positive results. The pharmacist said it may take 2-12 weeks to work.
     I figure these few weeks of side effects will be worth it to live without panic and depression.